harder, harder,
harder, eyes gleam with misfortune, a rats tail to fear, “make me a cup of tea”, “here is your shirt and here is your pants and here is my heart for you to fuck”
I love you
You love me too but in the deepest hole of insanity there is something missing
gleaming fucking bright sparkling starry night eyes from below the bleachers
make the bed and rub in the moisturizer an upside down eyebrow
“you want to fuck and then go?” shirts off skin clashing tied down bed breaking pipe puffing plate snapping “white people do things differently”
you in a blow up pool of kiddish delight a yellow flower placed so strategically
‘i know i won’t, i know i won’t, i know i won’t”
pull off the grass and let it stick to your clothes “you don’t get mad” “why are you smart” “i like you better with a beanie” “he hit the pretty birds with the slingshots” jumping off platforms to muddy ponds and laughing all the way down i miss you i miss you
“what are you afraid of?” “i’m afraid of everything” swooping magpies and dark roads “hold my hand there’s someone coming” a bed of roses a slippery hand “shower with me please im scared” i love you, where did it happen
my stomach hurts
it wont happen
hands over face
and tears on cheeks
it happened. just like you said it wouldnt.
